Where do we belong!

Hey guys!

Writing something down after a long time. I always get these urges to write something, but never do that due to lack of time or investing time in other worldly problems.

Of late, I have been thinking about the direction in which my career is heading. Even though I like my current job, understanding how large manufacturing companies work and implement oracle for them. However it is not entirely what I imagined myself to be doing when I was a kid.

Ofcourse when are are younger, we imagine us to be a lot of things, lots of dreams and then when you grow up, we stop chasing the dreams and start running to just get the things done in front of us. Somehow the tasks at our hand are too pressing and we forget what we always wanted.

All of us want to find our place in the world. Some find it, some make one and some just are happy with what they get. What if you are one of those, who have to make a place for yourself in the world and it is always there in the back of your mind. Even if you choose to ignore it, your sub conscious mind keeps on telling you, you don’t belong here. There are places you must go to and see for yourself, where you fit and if you don’t make a place for yourself. I have always loved Anime series. You get to learn a lot from them.

One of the Characters in the show Nanatsu no Taizai says, if I live long enough, maybe something will happen to me, I am waiting for that something to happen. We long for that something to happen, but it never might. We have very limited time in our hands and cannot wait an eternity for that moment. We have to work towards reaching that moment. We can only wish.

With that wish in my ghost, I will try to find the place where I belong.


Stackoverflow ?

Hey guys!! wassup!

I have been a member of StackOverflow since 4-5 years now, but just recently, I thought, why do I search for answers and not help others with their questions. So I have started answering questions on SO as well. I try to help people with SQL, Web Development related queries and related techs.

Now that I think about it, I am not entirely sure, why I never tried it in the first place, but then again, better late than never. Planning to be active and try to help as many people I can 🙂 come on now, an answer from you, makes their day at office easy 🙂

So yeah! guys go out there and try and be active at communities on stackexchange.

You can find me on SO @ http://stackoverflow.com/users/1013142/sudipta-mondal

Things that matter to me!!

I have always been thinking, about what matters to me the most. I like coding, I like sweet things, I like to be around people, cute things. I like soft and fluffy things 😛 I like my laptop a lot, like really a lot. I can marry it. If I don’t get to touch my laptop for a few days, I get withdrawal symptoms and after a few days, I just want to hug my laptop 😥

Too many things interest me and I feel, I can’t just keep my head into a single thing, I wanna try out so many things out there. I wanna try A, I wanna try B, till I get hang of B, I wanna try out C or whatever. I am random. ADHD perhaps.. not sure.

I used to live in one of the major cities in India and never ever lived or cared too much about people outside of that big city. Neither did I know much. Thank fully I got to work in a company, where I got to meet people from all over India. I have absolutely loved it.. There are so many people from so many places, with so much varied experiences, talent.

I have learned, I am not smart, I am definitely not intelligent. people are out there, some who think like you, some who are different, some who hate you, some whom you like. But people, so many to experience. I used to think, my way was always the right way, that I was correct in thinking always. I was so god damn wrong, for like 23-24 years of my life 🙂 I have learnt, about mistakes that I had made, thinking they were right. I could do only after meeting so many people. These things were never taught in college or school. These things you can only learn, if you go out there and experience, learn, see, listen.

Go, Get out there, talk to people, share your view, hang out, go to movies, but most importantly listen, to what everyone has to say. Listen and understand. I am sure, you will figure out the real you.

A Typical Conversation Between Me & Myself..

Well, here is it, the conversation I had with myself. There are two persons in this conversations. Me and the inner voice.

Me : Tell me what I am supposed to do.

Myself : But you already, know what to do.

Me : But you know that I don’t want to do it.

Myself : Really, You think so.

Me : I mean I am not exactly sure, if I want to do it or not.

Myself : Tell me what would give you the most satisfaction.

Me : Well but I am not doing it for any satisfaction, You know this.

Myself : May be you are.

Me : No, I am sure. Well the only satisfaction, is knowing the end result, it might be the best option for me. I have figured out about the other alternaMyselfes too. But in the end this path would help me to reach where I want to, even if I don’t like the path.

Myself : I guess, you are having inhibitions about this path from the beginning only, then how are you going to achieve this.

Me : Its true that I don’t like the idea. I would have to play completely against my strengths. By far, I feel that it would be very difficult.

Myself : The end result would be ofcourse depend on what choice you make, but if you don’t make a correct choice now, your end result would be completely different than what you are hoping right now! Plus you have doubts about the plan you have chosen.

Me : know that right now my mind might be filled with endless doubts. If I should do it or not, Have I choosen the correct path or not, would I be able to pull it through, would the end justify the means, is it really worth to play against your strengths, would I have to leave everything I like. But there is something, which I guess would help me pull through.

Myself : And what may that be?

Me : guess you already know that…

Myself : Well if you are so sure of achieving your goal, then i guess, the ends would justify the means for you. Best of luck and remember your weaknesses will become your strength only if you respect them.

Me : will remember that.